Superficial?...NO WAY

So yesterday I was at church.  Listening to music, listening to the sermon and the prayers.  This time it was different.  This time it hit me a bit more.  This sermon was geared for those superficial christians.  I started asking myself questions...am I being superficial with my christianity?  Do I like going to church just to listen to music or to have a moment of peace?  Dont get me wrong, I have been feeling more christ like, but I still kept asking myself is this because of Hanna?  Or am I becoming a changed christian as I feel as I am. (**Dont get me wrong, I have always been a christian...just not to the point where I want to be). The honest answer was...I just dont know.  But at the end of the service (and I am so glad that Mya's biting incident happened after his strongest point...that's a WHOLE new story), the pastor helped me find out that answer by praying for the congregation...This was the prayer...God, help me become more of a REAL follower and not a superficial follower.  Help me understand that you are REAL and live within me by showing me some time this week...some time, some where.....

I prayed this prayer so many times yesterday.  I prayed as soon as we got in the car (After the long talk with our little biter), I prayed this on my evening run, I prayed this after watching the beautiful opening ceremony of the Cowboys game, I prayed this before I went to bed!  I just kept wondering how in the world is he going to show me. 

God is REAL, God is WITHIN me, God is AWESOME

This morning (Monday morning...the day after this repeated prayer) I received a phone call from Dr. Marcin.  He started off by saying, Im so sorry that I am going to have to put you back on this emotional rollercoaster.  He told me that when he saw Hanna the last time he didnt want to put too much false hope into my head so he refrained from telling me.  But after talking and visiting with 3 other specialists they have all agreed that Hanna is a Miracle baby (ok, those are my words) and would not need to have this surgery after all.  (In 6 months we will revisit).  And although we will revisit in 6 months (with the possibility of surgery), Dr. Marcin does not forsee that happening! Her head has changed shape, but not to the degree of change that he would expect to see from a child that really truley needs this surgery! Now how do you like that for a quick response from God!!

I can not tell you in words how excited I am!!!  I started crying on the phone (due to all the excitement I was feeling).  Dr. Marcin sat in silence until I got my composure. After I got control he explained to me he feels like Hanna as his own and feels so sorry that this answer is so hard. He explained to me (as he has in the past) that he has a 18 mo old daughter and he feels for me!

So this is where we are now...and I like it here!!!

Love to all!!

**Now, even though this blog wont be continued or even helpful for those mothers needing support...maybe just maybe superficial christians that want to believe more can have a story that will help guide them!!